In Sickness and In Health (Part II)

It's an ulcer in his intestines. But they say it was huge and might have spread to other areas. They'll be doing a scan in both his upper and lower part of the body, just in case.
He's also lost alot of blood during that time. And the lousy thing is I can't donate my blood to him. He's got to use their blood.

He won't be discharged anytime soon. I am worried for him. I want him to recover and be the healthy old him again.
I hate to see him in that fragile state. I hate to see anyone I love to be in that state.

I hope this would be last barrier for him.

In Sickness and In Health

He had to be warded into SGH again. This time, it was for internal bleeding. Don't know the reason until they've inserted the probe inside him.

Things don't seem to be going well for him. He's 28 this year with no stable job. He's got a girlfriend but don't know if he's got enough to start a family. He's got a girlfriend but are they stable? Would she be there for him?

Post-24th Birthday Blues

Almost done with my celebrations with all my groups of friends.
Even though I told myself I'll treat myself to a self-alone time/celebration by going down to Brewerkz alone, I didn't/still have not done it yet. *sigh*
Is the thought of being alone so unbearable to me?

But just 2 gripes that I have thus far:

1. WTF was up with her behaviour that day? If she was bored, just openly say so! If she wanted to leave earlier, then just go! Why did she have to wipe out her HP when we were still having our dinner? And best conversing non-stop until we left for the night?
And the way she called me, she meant all those stuff that she said! Makes me wonder why I even call her my friend in the first place...

2. What am I going to do with my life?
I am still shouldering the burden of my family. I cannot run away nor deny it. I am stuck with the job for now, even though I dislike it...
Would I ever leave the organisation and venture forth? Would I ever find happiness within myself? What lies in the future for me?
Questions in my mind but no answers for any...

The most I can say to myself is: Best to enjoy the journey ahead. Nobody would ever make it interesting/fun/exciting for me except myself.

Is it always going to be like this?

I'm just thinking: Do I hate my job or do I hate my colleagues?
Will it always be like this? Does it always have to be like this?

Working is so much more different from studying. You don't have to cover your ass when you're studying. People don't judge you if you tell them you like to drink. Arrows don't land discriminately on you only. They fall on everyone equally.

I miss my uni life.